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I hate people's expectations, i hate when people simply judge me. I hate myself for being negative because i hate when people sees me as a negative person. I don't know, people. I am tired of everything around me. I want to run away. Far away and let my story be another 'once-upon-a-time-in-a-far-away-land' kind of thing.

I am exhausted. Both physically and mentally. i am no more adapt to my study. i no longer have the brain of a 'camera'. i hardly understand what I'm reading. I read 100 times but I still can't manage to grasp the facts. I am tired. I screwed up a lot last year. I failed in so many ways. At times I feel like doing this, and the next day comes with different story. Sometimes I feel like shutting it all up. Move over elsewhere. I don't even feel attached to my interests anymore the way I did before. Sad, right? :'(

If I was in the middle of a bloody war, this would be the exact point when I put my hands up, waving the white flag. i don't know how long i can survive. maybe a month or two perhaps.?